Friends.

I read an article yesterday titled "what a military spouse knows". I have to admit I LOVED the article, there are times when I read stuff like that and it's so ridiculous that I just roll my eyes because it's extremely exaggerated. We don't all lay around crying and feeling sorry for ourselves while wearing our husband's PT gear and eating ice cream, I mean maybe like once or twice during a deployment lol but not on a regular basis, but this article was different. It was REAL, so it got me to thinking..

I love my friends back home, A LOT. My friends back home are just like me, sassy and feisty, forward, and honest. I'm lucky for them because they remind me that I am not a bad person, I may be mean as a snake but I am not a bad person. When I am around my friends back home I feel a sense of what "home" is since I have known many of them since kindergarten and some even younger.

Then I have my friends that I have met since being a military spouse, the ones who for the most part have walked a mile in my shoes and I the same for them. These are the ones I know I can call when I am having a mental break down because this deployment is sneaking up faster than I can shake a stick and I am terrified, these are the girls that we swap weekly dinners with just to pass the time, I mean how many people do YOU know that would come running down the road carrying their flip flops because you sent them a misspelled text and they knew that something was terribly wrong? These are the girls that on deployment day they come busting in your house with a bottle of wine and force you to get dressed because crying home alone in the dark isn't going to pass 7 months any faster. These are the girls that when I need to be slapped into reality again and reminded just how strong I really am, they are the ones ready to do the slapping.

Some days I feel bad that I can't make everyone happy, that not everyone understands me, and that people are two faced and down right cruel, but then I remember at the end of the day I know the best people for MY life. Do we talk crap about everyone over wine? Absolutely, but at the end of the day I have come to realize that the people in my life are there for a reason. They don't judge me when I IM them because I am hysterically crying because Dominos offered to send me 3 things of cheesy bread because they messed up my order and I realized I didn't have a husband to send the extra cheesy bread to work with. They are the ones when I am tearing up in the middle of a pizza parlor because I miss friends from the past and fear for my husband this deployment telling me I am normal, despite how whiny and emotional I feel. I have the friends that despite being a million miles away from me when something is wrong in my life, they make themselves feel close to me. Honestly if I don't tell you it enough, you all mean so much to me and you each bring something to my life that is so different.

We may not be the same but at the end of the day, I am so blessed to have a heart full of wonderful people.

Brynna

Our LOVEly Valentine's Day!!

Happy Valentine's day to you! You see, here in our house Valentine's day is a big deal! A lot of people hate Valentine's day but that sucks for them because I LOVE it!!

We started our day today with heart shaped french toast, fresh fruit, and a chocolate muffin :)



Then of course I had the girls matching outfits, OMG aren't they so stinkin' cute?! Myleh couldn't wait to wear her dress :) I love having girly girls.



Myleh was so excited to go to school to share her cupcakes that she made yesterday (along with her Valentines!). I think she did a great job!



I made each of the girls a little goody basket full of random candies, a book, a balloon, and their new daddy dolls. They LOVED their daddy dolls :) I hope he brings comfort to them while the real daddy is out doing his job. It was a simple a sweet gift that went a long way!





Over all we have had a great day, we went and took a walk around the mall and the girls got to pick a little something from the Disney Store. I'm looking forward to spaghetti and hot dogs for dinner (okay that's a lie, it's what Myleh requested but i'm not eating it! I will have a salad lol) and a ice cream sundae to conclude our sweet day.

I hope you guys all had a great day too ;)

P.S remember if your day didn't go as planned or if you didn't get that special thing you wanted, there are tons of people out there who would give anything to have their special someone right there next to them, some have to wait days, months, and eternity before they see them again so please don't forget how lucky you are!

Practice.

I like to consider Mojave Viper training my practice run at deployment, it's a 5 week period where I kind of got a feel for what our schedules will be like with daddy gone and how life will be. I wish I could say I did okay, but I really don't think I did lol. I mean getting sick, having sick kids, calling an ambulance, and over cooking every single night (I hate left overs!) is pretty much going to fall under the "I failed" category.

Well I mean we are all still alive, but holy damn! I never get sick but the day Daniel left I was sick with the flu, of course both children were soon to follow! We all got well then BAM here comes a bug again! This time causing my poor Sassy girl to have a febrile seizure. (If you didn't know, febrile seizures are brought on by getting really hot really fast or coming down from a high fever too fast, they are hereditary, and they should both out grow them!) Thankfully she was okay, it just scared me half to death, I spent most of Thursday crying. I know her fever came on suddenly but looking back I could have noticed when she was "too sleepy mommy" for pizza. She's just so hard to read sometimes because she is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO dramatic. Daniel had his tonsils removed back in December and she still tells me her throat is either hurting or better, I have had her checked and that child's throat is fine lol.

One thing I have realized is it's SUPER annoying when people send their sick kids to school, I mean really. Do you feel the need to get rid of your child THAT bad for 3 hours that you're willing to infect an entire preschool class? I need to find some immune system boosters for my little sheltered kids lol.


A good thing I can say is we definitely fell into a routine and passed the time. So I guess I can't count this as a total fail, but it's pretty close haha. We plan to stay extremely busy while daddy is gone. Hopefully 7 months will fly as fast as this 5 weeks have and we have daddy back safe and sound!

I feel like I should say, I was a little skeptical of the people my husband works around, he seemed a little uncomfortable in the platoon for the longest time, but I will give them all props for coming together for me when I needed to try to contact Daniel about Myleh at the hospital. There just aren't enough words to express how much that meant to me. <--This could be considered a good thing too.


It's not easy trying to swallow the fact that there's a deployment looming on the horizon after 4 years. I'm beginning to question my sanity because I feel like I shouldn't be so worried, but I really am. I can't quite put my finger on what but I am already stressed. I wish this deployment would just start so I could get it over with, does that make sense? I think this time leading up to the D day is the WORST! It's like impending doom that you think about constantly.

Ok, I am all out of words.

Day 30

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss




Well he isn't "someone" but he sure is missed!

Day 29

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile



This was actually really hard to chose. Of course I started looking through the girls' baby pictures and they ALL make me smile, it almost made me for like one second have little ounce of baby fever-DON'T worry I slapped it out of myself lol.

Anyways, this picture makes me smile because it takes me back in my mind to a place where we were all together, we were all happy, and everything was just good. This was Daniel's birthday dinner/our going away dinner. Even though we had heavy hearts because the next morning we would wake up and drive away from Jacksonville, NC leaving all these people behind it was still really sweet that we got to all be together one last time. I have the best memories with so many people in this picture, memories that are irreplaceable and that can't be taken away, I know we are missing a (QUITE a) few people in the picture but as a whole, this picture will always make me smile :)

P.S you are all my heroes :)

Day 28

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of



I am going to be completely honest with you, I am terrified of losing people around me, especially Daniel. I have all the faith in the world that everything is going to be okay but with Daniel being a replacement to a group that has lost 18% this deployment, I would be a damn liar to say I was afraid of anything more at this moment in time. I just do the only thing I can do, pray and trust the fact that he and the people around him are prepared for this. I mean if anyone can handle bad guys, it's snipers right? Please just smile and nod lol.

Day 27

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member



I chose this *Really* old and really crazy picture of my sister and me :) I believe this picture was taken in 2006!