Day 26

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you




Well I could have put a picture of my family here or my friends or anything like that (I do have a Snuggles the bear that is pretty meaningful to me) but those would all be a big obvious. Of course my family and friends mean the world to me, in fact I am sure you have probably noticed that my Scentsy business means a lot to me too.

I became a consultant in May of 2009 and I have been working at it ever since. I have had great months, discouraging months, and months where I am just so proud of the people on my team I wish I had a million dollars to give each of them(Okay, Okay, that's EVERY month!). It's something that I enjoy being a part of and something that I feel like I have accomplished that actually makes Daniel proud of me. I know to some people it's just a little at home business but to me it really is much more than that, I can stay home everyday with my children and bring home an income to match Daniel's. Scentsy is my little business and it means a lot to me to succeed :)

Day 25

Day 25 - A picture of your day



Today we were at a birthday party :) The girls had a blast!

Day 24

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change




I know it seems completely pitiful to wish I could change the impossible, but if I was given the ability to change one thing in life it would be this.

Everyday our freedom is taken for granted and not only freedom but life it's self. I try to remember that in the back of my head when I am bitching about something irrelevant or upset over something stupid.

Day 23

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book



I know, I know. Very cliché, but really have enjoyed the books so far! I am about to start "Eclipse" and I everything about the first two books. This doesn't mean I am going to go out and buy a Twilight shirt and tattoo Edward's face on my ass or anything but I definitely recommend the books if you are in the mood for a cute romance story ;)

Day 22

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at



I wish I were better at photography. Daniel bought me a really nice camera with a ton of accessories and I haven't the slightest idea how to use any of it lol. It is my goal this year to learn and practice makes perfect :)

Worried.

A couple nights ago I was doing the usual evening Facebooking before bed and I came across an article about the brave marines of 3/5, the article basically brought into perspective what shoes Daniel will be walking in sooner than I am ready to admit. One paragraph stood out to me in particular,

"We don't know who we're fighting over there, who's friendly and who isn't," he said. "They're always watching us. We're basically fighting blind."

It sent a really cold shiver down my spine and I haven't been able to get it off my mind since then. I know that it is their job to do this type of stuff and handle that but from the outside looking in I am so terrified. I feel like for every positive thought I feel I have a scared feeling in the back of my mind that I can't shake. I have never felt so uneasy about a deployment before and I am beginning to think I have lost my mind (lol). I mean this is number 3, aren't these supposed to get easier? I have always dealt with deployments pretty well in my opinion but since the last one which was 4 years ago we have had children, lost a friend, moved across the country, and now he is deploying with a bunch of strangers that I really don't feel like he trusts. Daniel has never disliked people at work before, or atleast expressed it to me and he does now which concerns me, a deployment with 1/6 God forbid something would have happened people would have tried to help/help not because they felt obligated but because they actually gave a shit about each other.. This is not the case now. Blah, I need to take a Positive Patty pill and just get over it but I can't lie, I am really stressed out and worried.

Day 21

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget



September 11th, 2001. I don't really so much wish I could "forget" per say but I do really wish it didn't happen or that I had no memory of it. I was home that morning (playing sick from school so I could sleep in) so I saw the second plane hit. I remember it being a really strange surreal feeling, we were still at that point confused as to what was going on but it at that moment became a little more clear that this was no accident. I remember the fear that we all felt and the shock, the people jumping from the burning buildings, people crying for their missing loved ones, it was a really difficult time and I wish I didn't have a memory of it. I will never forget.