Maybe it's not just me, it's you.

Since moving to California I have learned a lot about myself. I was completely tossed out of my element and away from friends and family into a place where I was the odd man out. I felt like I talked different, acted different, thought different, drove different, and just in general WAS different. I recently had my character questioned which lead me to do a lot of soul searching and questioning.

After much thought and consideration I have decided that maybe it's not me, the big horrible person it's those that I surround myself with. I am incapable of making one feel one way or another, you can only allow yourself to feel that way. Maybe I can be mean, I just don't take crap from anyone. I hardly see that a flaw. Where I come from we tell each other how we are feeling and it's rarely sugar coated. Maybe I am wrong for being small minded enough to think everyone is that way, and that's my fault but i'm never going to allow someone to walk all over me or run their mouth to me and push me. It's never going to happen. I consider myself a classy person most days but I am by nature a fighter and you will not walk all over me.

I know on this base people thrive on the drama and for a moment I was infatuated too. At the end of the day, i'm still Brynna. I'm not two faced, never have been. Why would I need two faced friends? I'm not a slut, why would I need slutty friends? I don't have patience for people like that so why do I need to waste my time on a friendship headed to nowhere? The friends that I have made in my lifetime are all people that I find amazing and irreplaceable, why all of a sudden because I live on Camp Pendleton should I settle for anything less than that? So I hit a road block and maybe you will stand with me or maybe you will stand against me, but i'm not going to play the drama games anymore. I have a life, kids, a husband, and a family and in the grand scheme of things none of this bullshit even dings my important O meter. I have also come to the grave conclusion that other people's opinions of me are simply irrelevant, I know no other way to be than to be myself. If you can't handle that then maybe we shouldn't be friends. I'd rather have ZERO friends than a friend that smiles in my face and talks shit behind my back, because always remember-point one finger and you have 3 more pointing back at you. Unless your life is better or even comparable to mine, you really have no wiggle room to talk. Also to address the "Brynna acts better than everyone" issue, I act like myself, if you feel like that's better than you then that's your own damn fault. I don't control minds and feelings of those around me, I'm me if you feel inferior in my presence then we don't belong as friends. It's no biggie, I am most compatible with strong minded and confident people. Sorry for your luck.

I am 23 years old and I have always been proud of the fact that I am wise beyond my years, I have no desire to waste my life concerning myself with other people's irrelevant problems and opinions. So with that said we can be friends or you can be non existent to me but if your middle name starts with a D and ends with a Rama this is your que to exit stage left, your 15 minutes of fame are over.

For those that I have met and learned to love, you know who you are! I can't thank you enough for being true friends!

Brynna :)