Worried.

A couple nights ago I was doing the usual evening Facebooking before bed and I came across an article about the brave marines of 3/5, the article basically brought into perspective what shoes Daniel will be walking in sooner than I am ready to admit. One paragraph stood out to me in particular,

"We don't know who we're fighting over there, who's friendly and who isn't," he said. "They're always watching us. We're basically fighting blind."

It sent a really cold shiver down my spine and I haven't been able to get it off my mind since then. I know that it is their job to do this type of stuff and handle that but from the outside looking in I am so terrified. I feel like for every positive thought I feel I have a scared feeling in the back of my mind that I can't shake. I have never felt so uneasy about a deployment before and I am beginning to think I have lost my mind (lol). I mean this is number 3, aren't these supposed to get easier? I have always dealt with deployments pretty well in my opinion but since the last one which was 4 years ago we have had children, lost a friend, moved across the country, and now he is deploying with a bunch of strangers that I really don't feel like he trusts. Daniel has never disliked people at work before, or atleast expressed it to me and he does now which concerns me, a deployment with 1/6 God forbid something would have happened people would have tried to help/help not because they felt obligated but because they actually gave a shit about each other.. This is not the case now. Blah, I need to take a Positive Patty pill and just get over it but I can't lie, I am really stressed out and worried.