Day 3

Day 03 – A song that makes you happy

Easy, Jack Johnson-Better Together
It reminds me of a lot of great memories with Daniel :) I always smile and blast this song when it comes on my iPod, it takes me back to a Valentine's day of 2006 <33



There’s no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart and our dreams
And they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-tone lovin’
Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go? and how come it's so hard?
It’s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I’ll tell you one thing
It’s always better when we're together

Mmmm it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, we’ll look at them stars and we’re together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together

And all of these moments just might find
Their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they’ll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things
For tomorrow night you see that they’ll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I’d be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We’ll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm we’re somewhere in between together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm mmmm mmmmmmmmm

I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now and, and when I wake up
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We’re Better together

Day 2

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

Tonight-Enrique Iglesias

SOOOO Easy! I freaking HATE this song!! I typically don't like songs with a bunch of filth or cursing, I just think it's inappropriate.. I know I know..



I know there's another version that says "loving" instead of the F word but still the concept of the song just grosses me out and I would punch somebody in the face if they walked up to me in a club and said "Tonight i'm f*cking you!".. Note that boys.

I know you want me
I made it obvious that I want you too
So put it on me
Let's remove the space between me and you
Now rock your body
Damn I like the way that you move
So give it to me
'Cause I already know
What you wanna do

And here's the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody's ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Given my reputation
Please excuse me I don't mean to be rude

But tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you

You're so damn pretty
If I had a type then baby it would be you
I know you're ready
If I never lied then baby
You'd be the truth

And here's the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody's ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Given my reputation
Please excuse me I don't mean to be rude

But tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you

30 Songs in 30 Days-Day 1!

Thanks to my wonderful friend Christina who sent me the information for this new 30 day project, i'm looking forward to passing another 30 days doing this!!

Day 1- Your favorite song

This was hard, I don't really have a "favorite" song, I just kind of love a song but many songs at once if that even makes sense lol. One of my favorite songs right now is Katy Perry- E.T I LOVE the beat and I love Katy Perry, too bad about Kanye being in there ;)



[Kanye West]
I got a dirty mind
I got filthy ways
I’m tryna Bath my Ape in your Milky Way
I’m a legend, I’m irreverent
I be reverand
I be so fa-a-ar up, we don’t give a f-f-f-f-ck
Welcome to the danger zone
Step into the fantasy
You are not invited to the otherside of sanity
They calling me an alien
A big headed astronaut
Maybe it’s because your boy Yeezy get ass a lot

[Katy Perry]
You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil
Could you be an angel

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Your so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes


And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

There is this transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

[Kanye West]
I know a bar out in Mars
Where they driving spaceships instead of cars
Cop a Prada spacesuit about the stars
Getting stupid ass straight out the jar
Pockets on Shrek, Rockets on deck
Tell me what’s next, alien sex
I’ma disrobe you, than I’mma probe you
See I abducted you, so I tell ya what to do
I tell ya what to do, what to do, what to do

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

The blah effect.

Well hot damn. We were doing SO good with dealing with this deployment, or so I thought..

The girls haven't been sleeping that well at all and the "I miss my daddy" has begun. It's really hard to try to maintain a stiff upper lip when i'm trying to explain we have to be strong and every time we go to sleep we get closer to Daddy, when in reality I feel like absolute crap too. I know this is just feelings that should have been felt the day he left creeping in but damn. The rain also didn't help, I hate when I look outside and it's gloomy AND I feel gloomy inside already.

I am recalling the feelings of trying to remain positive and how hard it really is. It's hard to fight back tears when your 4 year old doesn't want to eat because she thinks starving herself will make Daddy come home or when your 1 year old sees his picture and screams "DADDY!!!" at the top of her lungs, I don't want them to forget him by ANY means but I do wish we could all adjust soon, it hasn't even been a week yet and despite my attempts of being positive, I feel like absolute poop.

Must. Get. Out. Of. The. House. Soon!!

Never goodbye.

Well deployment day has officially come and gone. It was a little easier than I thought it would be, but by no means was it "easy". My heart sank when I heard them call out that it was time to load up, I felt a panic come on, the fight or flight type of panic. I wanted to stand there with my chin up, brave, and fearless but at the same time I wanted to grab Daniel and run back to the car, back out and speed off. Fortunately I found a happy medium of them both, honestly the guys made it so easy to be comfortable. They are all truly my heros, they loaded the buses with smiles on their faces and in great spirits. It's SO hard to be sad when you see guys dressed in camis headed to a war zone and danger with smiles on their faces and their spirits high. They are ready.

My heart broke when the buses drove away and I could hear Daniel tapping his wedding band on the window as they went by, I couldn't see him because the lights were off on the bus but I had a feeling it was him (I was right!). After that came the long ride home, well it felt long. Thankfully it was dark outside and very early so it wasn't so awkward since I cried the entire way home. It was hard to pull into the drive way seeing his car parked but knowing he wasn't home, it's little stuff like that I will need to start getting adjusted too.

Surprisingly I think I have done pretty well emotionally. I was worried I would be spending a lot more time crying, but I really haven't. I'm sure my level of exhaustion is kind of distorting my reality a little lol but I actually feel okay right now. Every now and then I will get a little sick feeling in the pit of my stomach but I just try to think of something else really quickly and it goes away. I've also not really had too much time to sit and think about how sad I am and I think that makes the difference. I know that me sitting in my house crying all day isn't going to turn the buses around any sooner so I chose to keep my eye on the prize and my mind off the fears.

My heart is heavy and I miss him so much but the show must go on. The girls and I look forward to wrapping our arms around him when he steps back off that bus :) Thank you all so much for your love, support, and prayers. It was overwhelming yesterday to see how much you guys really care. My phone, facebook, texts, and emails were constant yesterday and that really, REALLY made my day. I love you all!!

Before I go, I wanted to share this picture with you because it's amazing. Like AMAZING, amazing! At 5AM he was standing in the darkness, saluting his brothers as they left, in his dress blues. That is dedication and love at it's finest.



"Saluting the deploying Marines of 1st Battalion 5th Marines 1st Marine Division as they drive over San Mateo Hill, Camp Pendleton, CA. Sangin, Afghanistan watch out!"

Make Peace or DIE.
~Brynna

On the eve of her birthday.

Wow, I can't even believe Myleh will be FOUR tomorrow morning. I remember the day she was born so clearly! It can't be four years already lol? Here are a VERY few of my favorite pictures of Miss Thang.

She was only a few hours old here:


We still aren't really sure how this happened lol.



Her first Halloween :)


First Birthday Party


Second Birthday at Disneyland



Her Super Sweet Third Birthday Party!


Of course these are just a couple that I came across, I literally have THOUSANDS of pictures and these don't even scratch the surface of my faves lol. It has been four amazing years of learning, growing, and laughs. I enjoy my little Myleh so much and the sweet little person that she has become. She is such a genuine little person, and I look forward to watching her grow up. I don't know what I did in life that made me deserve such a wonderful little person to call my daughter, but whatever it is I am so thankful :)

Brynna

Oh March, here you are.

Well here came March anyways now didn't it? My sweet girl is turning 4 and soon we will give daddy his last kiss for 7 long months! I will be happy to see March end and it's only just begun.

I can honestly say that at this point, today.. I feel strangely calm about this deployment. I have come to accept it and I am comfortable at last with who Daniel will be around. I am not sure what happened in 29 palms for 5 weeks but whatever happened I am grateful for, I saw brothers when I saw them all together. I am especially happy with the guys Daniel works with directly on his team, all of them are great guys. I wish there was more time to bond before the deployment but it's life I guess.

Today I realized that I am almost anxious for him to leave so I am not in this weird limbo all the time, because right now I know it's coming soon, I can be smiling but there's a little black rain cloud behind my smile and I am really ready to kick that rain cloud to the curb and get this deployment on a roll. The sooner it starts the sooner it will be over, and I finally for the first time feel ready. I am nervous because I don't want anything to happen to anyone we know, especially my husband but I am ready. I know I have to get through all this to get to the end of his deployment.

I plan to stay busy, travel, and just enjoy life while he is gone. I know the girls and I will miss him so much but dwelling on it isn't going to get us very far. I am praying time will fly and this fall we will be making homecoming signs and getting ready for our favorite marine to come home.

I know I will have my days where crying and wine are going to be a requirement but bring it on if it gets me one day closer.

Brynna