2012 resolutions.

Well let's be honest. We seldom write and stick to our resolutions, that's just the way it is which is why I thought pretty long and hard about what i'd like mine to be, nothing crazy and nothing mama can't do. Oh yes and in case you were wondering, I AM well aware of the fact that I have not 1.Blogged in a while and 2. I have yet to write a Christmas blog(Coming SOON!).

 Anyways, I had a pretty angry 2011 if I am being honest. I spent a lot of time (too much time) just plain, flat out, pissed off. Always at things I couldn't change. In 2012 I am hoping to first of all stop getting angry about things I can't change. I need to accept that sometimes the bad guy wins, the liar sometimes get away with their lies, and most importantly that I can't change bad people. Sometimes people are just bad and that's the way it is. No matter how many benefits of the doubt you give, no matter how much you look the other way, no matter what.. Someone that isn't a good person will not change. I Brynna, need to stop getting angry about this. I plan to go to great lengths come January 1st to remove any and ALL bad apples from my life and this includes other people's stresses. At the end of the day sometimes I care to much and it needs to stop. I am not going to fight battles any longer for anyone other than myself, I feel like after this year I owe it to ME to let other people, weak people, stand on their own two feet.

 Aside from being angry about a bunch of random things in 2011 I have also come to realize that I would like to get into fighting shape this year and get my butt in the ring. I know that mentally I am ready for this. Some of you reading this may think I have lost my mind, but I really can't describe the way I feel when I have my gloves on. I love having the ability to defend myself and maybe it's a little ironic that this comes about after my paragraph on anger lol whatever the reason is I NEED THIS. Now when I say "fighting shape" I don't mean "Hey I want to be skinny!!" Because that's not what I mean. One thing 2011 has taught me is that being beautiful doesn't mean you are 110 pounds, it's more about how you feel inside about yourself and how healthy you are., and by the way ladies being 110 lbs doesn't make you pretty the sooner this reality sets in the easier your life will be. I personally have come to be comfortable with the fact that yes, I have a big butt and weighing in at 138 pounds I am a curvy 24 year old, adult. I don't need to be stick nor do I desire to be. What I *do* desire is to be stronger, and by this I mean I want to have the ability to hit you and knock you down. (A pretty damn important skill to have when stepping into a ring lol).

 My last and final resolution for 2012 is to stop cursing so much. I seriously have the filthiest little mouth on Earth and I don't even mean to! I would really love to clean that up a notch :)

 I am excited for 2012 and to see what it brings, thank God for another year on this earth, and I pray each of you have a blessed and happy new year! Leave 2011 in the past and let's welcome a fresh new year!!!!

The end.

As with most things that we count down to and look forward to, the months become days, the days become hours, and the hours become moments and then FINALLY you reach the moment you have been waiting for.. Today my moment is one my family has crossed days off the calendar for, prayed for, cried for, wished for, and hoped for, for 7 months. Daniel is coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I remember this day:

It was 3AM and cold outside. My heart was heavy and I didn't want to let go. Hoping and praying I'd see that face again, that my children would see his face again, I had to let go. They were calling for them to board the dreaded white busses and holding on wasn't an option I had anymore. Did I say all I needed to say? The what if's all swirling in my head, standing there holding hands with strangers who would soon become friends I watched the buses leave. Dazed and confused were the best ways to describe the first couple of weeks of this deployment. I hated nighttime the most though, closing the curtains, bringing in the trash cans, tucking the girls in, nights seemed to drag the worst in the beginning. This deployment was especially stressful and heart wrenching as my friends received calls about injured husbands, I'll never forget the drive over to one friend's house as I cried knowing her husband lost his leg, trying to get there as fast as I possibly could.. Not some stranger in the streets, not a name on the news, my friend. I'll also never forget welcoming that smiling face home, he's one of the strongest people I have ever met, thank God for men like him! Then came a funeral.. I've never seen a more beautiful service, I was humbled by the sacrifice made by two heroes. They paid the ultimate sacrifice and I am eternally grateful, what a lot of people don't understand is when a service member dies not only do they make a sacrifice but their families do also. My heart is heavy for them during this time and I thank not only Sgt. Gonzales and Sgt. Robinson for their enormous sacrifices but also their families. Of course during all this my mind was in a really dark place, at that point I had pretty much came to terms with the fact that Daniel probably wasn't going to come home because if these horrible things could happen so close, to people he works amongst surely, it could happen to him too. I know that's terrible to say but that's just where I was. Of course, I was lucky enough that I had great friends and my mom. Oh goodness we have all had some pretty damn good times lol ranging from Vegas to a sprinkler attack during a fire pit night, but for every worrisome thought we had a million laughs and I am so grateful for these moments. Here are a few:

Ha! I'm definitely grateful for all the wonderful people who helped me get through this, we passed our days with wine, coffee, laughter, and good old fashioned wishing and hoping! There's nothing like having good friends to call when you're having a good day or a bad day and no matter what they are there to listen and in most cases point and laugh. I couldn't have asked for a better support system had I of hand picked them myself. And today, we get to hold hands yet again and welcome our boys home!! A moment I wouldn't trade for the world, again thank you so much to everyone who has wished me prayers and kind words, they all mean so much and your prayers worked! We get our Daddy Bear back <3

Humbled.

Today a few of us girls went to visit one of the injured sniper platoon boys who was just sent back from Afghanistan due to an infection. He is doing wonderful by the way! Kayla and I worked hard for 6 hours making a random selection of home made candies and goodies, everything turned out great and we decided to take the extras to some of the other 1/5 boys that were unfortunately on the floor as well. I knew going in that I would see some things in person that I had only seen in movies and read about online, I felt prepared I mean these boys are HEROES rather they want to be or not. As we pulled up to the hospital I did feel a little overwhelmed because I didn't know what to expect, gratefully Daniel's buddy from the platoon was in great spirits and he will make a perfect recovery :) After our visit with him we dropped some bags off for the rest of the 1/5 boys on the floor, they were in isolation so we were unable to go visit them unless we personally knew them, we were able to visit a couple of boys from the floor below one of which knew who Daniel was, small world right? Gosh he was a young boy but keeping with the trend he was in great spirits! We also had the honor of meeting a double amputee, it was a little overwhelming because he was my age, 24. I can not imagine losing my legs and chalking it up to a day's work, I am in awe of his courage. Twenty four years old, it has been rolling around in my head all day. We also got to meet his adorable little boys and wife who we hugged. She was holding it together so well, I was so proud to hug her. I bet that girl had strength for weeks.

It was just so honestly overwhelming to be among people, young people, who were/are willing to not only be injured for this country but to die for it had their days gone just a little bit differently in a bad way. They are all so lucky to be alive and never once did I hear a single complaint. I saw a double amputee smiling at his children, a man just 11 days ago who was on the same battle field where my own husband walks. God bless him, I wish I could scream that outside right now.

It all hit home for me because just as quick as it is one of those great men it could be my husband. God forbid. I have always had a respect for the ones brave enough to hug their families good bye to head to combat but today I am just bursting at the seams. I am so proud to have had the honor to meet and be in the presence of the true definition of what a hero is.

If you know me you know that I am one who believes EVERYthing happens for a reason, everything. Today Kayla and I found ourselves directly in front of the Armed Forces YMCA at Balboa due to an unusually random circumstance lol, and I have decided to volunteer once or twice a week starting next month, even if it means I am just hand delivering XBOX games to those injured in combat, I don't care. Thanks just honestly doesn't seem like enough. Please continue to keep 1/5 in your prayers, we are very close but yet still very far.

Brynna

A sweet little graduation :)

Wow, my little princess graduated from her first year of preschool! Time just absolutely flies. It doesn't feel like more than 4 years ago she was just a little pink bundle of joy snuggled up in her pack and play. Sometimes I wish there was a freeze button for life, I feel like it just passes by so fast. I am so proud of my little Sassy britches for all that she has accomplished this year, from starting to read, write, color in lines, draw detailed pictures, to the interaction with her classmates (and SO much more!). It's so cute to me that she made little friends on her own and that she is this happy, independent little person. I love the person that she is and I am so lucky to be able to watch her grow, she makes me a very proud mama!

Congratulations baby girl!

Today preschool, tomorrow college!

Happy Father's Day, Daniel!

Daniel,
Thank you for always being such a wonderful father to our sweet baby girls. I hope and pray that through out their lives they will appreciate all the sacrifices you make for them and all that you do for them. I wish you could see how adorable it is when you wake up early on a Saturday morning and make the girls a breakfast fit for queens while watching cartoons or when you dress the girls and take the neatness of their hair very seriously. I love how no matter how exhausted you are when you walk through the front door, a big hug is always in order and possibly a little rolling around in the floor getting beat up. Thank you for always being grateful to be their dad, for always putting them first and for never feeling shameful about having tea parties and singing along with the girls. Thank you for never playing video games even though I know that deep down inside you probably would love too. Thank you for always taking the girls to see the new princess movies, liking them, and making it a big deal for them to have a "daddy date".

To them right now all that you do is just life, every day daddy's love, but you go above and beyond the call of duty and I am so thankful for that. Thank you for making sure hell would freeze over before our children ever went with out anything and for never being too far away to blow a kiss.

I pray that no matter how big they get and how much we embarrass them when they are teenagers that they never forget your little bed room "camping" adventures, the sleigh bells from Santa, the ice cream cones in Ikea (ALWAYS!), The beach days and sand castles, or your big ass going down the slide at the playground.

Thank you so much for all that you do for us and most of all thank you for being the universe's greatest daddy, I have yet to meet a better one. Just know that the things you do don't go unnoticed, even if sometimes you wish they would haha (*cough falling up the stairs *cough*) <3

Now enjoy a couple of my favorite Daddy photos :)
















Okay, that was .03495 of my favorite pictures but really this could go on for days!




Love,
Brynna

Day 23

One day I WILL finish this lol.

Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding

A song that WAS played at my wedding,



Random? Yes. It was our first dance :) It was also my parent's first dance song, so that's why ;)

Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
And maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have

If I made you feel second best
Girl, I'm sorry I was blind
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
Give me
Give me one more chance to keep you satisfied
I'll keep you satisfied

Day 22

Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad.

I just love the man in black, I don't have to be sad to listen to him ;)



My daddy left home when I was three
And he didn't leave much to ma and me
Just this old guitar and an empty bottle of booze.
Now, I don't blame him cause he run and hid
But the meanest thing that he ever did
Was before he left, he went and named me "Sue."

Well, he must o' thought that is quite a joke
And it got a lot of laughs from a' lots of folk,
It seems I had to fight my whole life through.
Some gal would giggle and I'd get red
And some guy'd laugh and I'd bust his head,
I tell ya, life ain't easy for a boy named "Sue."

Well, I grew up quick and I grew up mean,
My fist got hard and my wits got keen,
I'd roam from town to town to hide my shame.
But I made a vow to the moon and stars
That I'd search the honky-tonks and bars
And kill that man who gave me that awful name.

Well, it was Gatlinburg in mid-July
And I just hit town and my throat was dry,
I thought I'd stop and have myself a brew.
At an old saloon on a street of mud,
There at a table, dealing stud,
Sat the dirty, mangy dog that named me "Sue."

Well, I knew that snake was my own sweet dad
From a worn-out picture that my mother'd had,
And I knew that scar on his cheek and his evil eye.
He was big and bent and gray and old,
And I looked at him and my blood ran cold
And I said: "My name is 'Sue!' How do you do!
Now your gonna die!!"

Well, I hit him hard right between the eyes
And he went down, but to my surprise,
He come up with a knife and cut off a piece of my ear.
But I busted a chair right across his teeth
And we crashed through the wall and into the street
Kicking and a' gouging in the mud and the blood and the beer.

I tell ya, I've fought tougher men
But I really can't remember when,
He kicked like a mule and he bit like a crocodile.
I heard him laugh and then I heard him cuss,
He went for his gun and I pulled mine first,
He stood there lookin' at me and I saw him smile.

And he said: "Son, this world is rough
And if a man's gonna make it, he's gotta be tough
And I knew I wouldn't be there to help ya along.
So I give ya that name and I said goodbye
I knew you'd have to get tough or die
And it's the name that helped to make you strong."

He said: "Now you just fought one hell of a fight
And I know you hate me, and you got the right
To kill me now, and I wouldn't blame you if you do.
But ya ought to thank me, before I die,
For the gravel in ya guts and the spit in ya eye
Cause I'm the son-of-a-bitch that named you "Sue.'"

I got all choked up and I threw down my gun
And I called him my pa, and he called me his son,
And I came away with a different point of view.
And I think about him, now and then,
Every time I try and every time I win,
And if I ever have a son, I think I'm gonna name him
Bill or George! Anything but Sue! I still hate that name!

Day 21

Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy

I love this song and completely agree with the lyrics lol. I <3 to be lazy!!




Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'

I'm Gonna Kick My Feet Up
Then Stare At The Fan
Turn The TV On
Throw My Hand In My Pants
Nobody's Gon' Tell Me I Can't

I'll Be Lounging On The Couch, Jus' Chillin In My Snuggie
Click To MTV So They Can Teach Me Howda Dougie
Cause In My Castle I'm The Freakin' Man
Oh Oh

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I Swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'
Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Tomorrow I'll Wake Up Do Some P90X
Meet A Really Nice Girl Have Some Really Nice Sex
She's Gonna Scream Out "This Is Great!" (Oh My God! This Is Great!)

Yeah

I Might Mess Around, and Get My Collage Degree
I Bet My Old Man Would Be So Prouda Me




But Sorry Pops You'll Just Have To Wait
Oh Oh

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'

No I Ain't Gonna Comb My Hair
'Cause I Ain't Goin' Anywhere
No No No No No No No No No
Ohhh

I'll Just Strut In My Birthday Suit
And Let Everything Hang Loose
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'
Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Day 20

Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry

This was easy lol, I also like to hear this song when I am at the gym.. Don't judge me haha.



I need you to pray for me and
I need you to care for me and
I need you to want me to win
I need to know where I'm heading,'cause I know where I've been
Flow's bone crushing it's nothing
I come up with something
Come through your strip, fronting, stunting
It's something you want, 745 chrome spinning
Haters hate that I'm winnning
Man I've been hot from the beginning
Motherfuckers envy the kid, control your jealousy
'Cause I can't control my temper, I'm fitting to catch a felony
Pistol in hand homie, I'm down to get it popping
Once I squeeze the first shot
No I aint stopping till my clip is empty
I'm simply not that nigga you should try your luck with
Fuck with, hollow-tip shells struck with your bones broke
Gun smoking, still locing, what nigga
Lay your ass down paramedics get you up feeling

[50 Cent]
Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

[Lloyd Banks]
Ive'a lost my bigger nigga and I didn't cry
To young to understand, the consequences of man
Living a lie I, gotta get that money
I'll be damned if If I'm bummy
Gotta watch my back around these niggas
'Cause they fronting 20 years
Of watching my mum in tears
Got me heated, heavily weeded
Smoking that bong 'cause I need it
These niggas don't want me balling, they want me buried
Bald in the dirt from shots flury
Laying with bugs under my shirt
I got plans to hop up in they Hummer
'Cause I'mma stunner, I sit back and wonder
When them angels gon' call my number
Under, my chest is a heart of a lion
I ain't lieing , bounty hunters got me flying
With my iron, high as a giant
I'm running from nothing, my stomach is touching
What I'm clutching, to give you more then a concussion
End of discussion
My blood is colder, so I'm bolder
Hennesy and Soda
Hood on my my shoulder
Look in the mirror, I see a soldier

[50 Cent]
Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

[Eminem]
These are my ideas
This is my sweat and tears
This is shit that I saw with my eyeballs, my ears
This is me who's gotta be
What you see on TV
What you hear on CD
What appears easy
Man these teenie boppers see me on these magazine covers
In these beanies and these rags, living fantasies
Fronting like it's all fun and games
Till they shoot 'em up bang
Then you see brains hang and you see we ain't playing
Ain't saying we ain't laying down at night and ain't praying
I bully my way in this game, man I'm done playing
Man I'm done saying that I'm done playing
I'mma start laying into these motherfucking cocksuckers
There's no way I'mma back down, like a goddamn coward
I can't, how would I look as man bowing to his knees
Like the mad cow disease, let somebody lash out at me
And not lash back out at 'em, please
Oh, whoa, yo, ho, hold up, oh no, not me
Not Marshall, you wanna see Marshall?
I'll show you Marshall, I try to show you art
But you just pick it apart, so I see I have to start
Showing you fuckin old farts a whole other side
I wanted to not show you, so you know you're not dealing with
Some fuckin marshmallow, little soft yellow
Punk pussy, who's heart's Jello, 'cause

[50 Cent]
Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

Right now I'm on the edge
So don't push me
I aim straight for your head
So don't push me
Fill your ass up with lead
So don't push me
I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy

Flow

Day 19

Day 19 – A song from your favorite album

I freaking love this song :) It's from Britney's "Circus" album! One of my all time faves!



“kill the lights”
performed by britney spears
produced by danja
danja intro [radio news break]
“ladies and gentlemen, we interrupt our program of dance music, to bring you a special bulletin from the intercontinental radio news. our very own pop princess -now queen of pop, has a special announcement she will like to make…”
[talking]
you’re in…
i think i’m ready for my close up..
yeah
[verse 1]
you don’t like me
i don’t like you, it don’t matter (who?)
only difference
you still listen, i don’t have to (who?)
in one ear and
out the other, i don’t need you (who?)
your words don’t stick
i ain’t perfect, but you ain’t either (who?)
if your feeling frozen (oh)
i don’t even lose no sleep (oh)
theres more to me than what you see (oh)
you wouldn’t like me when i’m angry..
[chorus]
mr. photographer
i think i’m ready for my close-up (tonight)
make sure you catch me from my good side (pick one!)
these other (ha) just wanna be me
is that money in your pocket?
or you happy to see me?
kill the lights!
(take ‘em out, turn ‘em off, break ‘em down)
kill the lights!
(don’t be scared, make a move, see me now?)
kill the lights!
(i’ve seen you, watching me, watching you)
kill the lights!
you can’t handle the truth
what happened to you?
i kill
(the lights) pure
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill
(the lights) lights
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
i kill
(the lights) pure
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill
(the lights) lights
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
[verse 2]
all the flashin’, tryin’ to cash-in
hurts my eyes
all the poses, out of focus
i despise
eff me over, your exposure
not the best
you want me bad, i want you out
release this stress..
[chorus]
mr. photographer (yeaaaaaah..)
i think i’m ready for my close-up (tonight) (yeaaaaaah..)
make sure you catch me from my good side (pick one!) (yeaaaaaah..)
these other (ha) just wanna be me
is that money in your pocket? (yeah)
or you happy to see me?
kill the lights!
(take ‘em out, turn ‘em off, break ‘em down)
kill the lights!
(don’t be scared, make a move, see me now?)
kill the lights!
(i’ve seen you, watching me, watching you)
kill the lights!
you can’t handle the truth
what happened to you?
i kill (hey!)
(the lights) pure (hey!)
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill (hey!)
(the lights) lights (hey!)
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
i kill (c’mon)
(the lights) pure (hey!)
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill (hey!)
(the lights) lights (hey!)
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
[bridge]
you’re the star now, welcome to the big league
they all want a pic, they all wanna see, see, see
what you’re made of… what you’re gonna do
is life gonna get the best of you?
[chorus]
kill the lights!
(take ‘em out, turn ‘em off, break ‘em down)
kill the lights!
(don’t be scared, make a move, see me now?)
kill the lights!
(i’ve seen you, watching me, watching you)
kill the lights!
you can’t handle the truth
what happened to you?
ii kill (hey!)
(the lights) pure (hey!)
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill (hey!)
(the lights) lights (hey!)
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
i kill (c’mon)
(the lights) pure (hey!)
(the lights) satis
(the lights) faction
i kill (hey!)
(the lights) lights (hey!)
(the lights) camera
(the lights) action
[ad-libs]
yeaaaaaaah…
yeaaaaaaah…
yeaaaaaaah…
yeaaah.
[britney laughs]

Day 18

Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio

Because sometimes we really all need to listen to this song and when you hear it at random, that's the best ;) A little reminder that every little thing is gonna be alright!!





"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Day 17

Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio

I hate this song but everytime I get in the car it's playing somewhere.



Na na na na
Come on
Na na na na
Come on
Na na na na na
Come on
Na na na na
Come on, come on, come on
Na na na na
Come on
Na na na na
Come on
Na na na na na
Come on
Na na na na
Come on, come on, come on
Na na na na

Feels so good being bad (Oh oh oh oh oh)
There's no way I'm turning back (Oh oh oh oh oh)
Now the pain is my pleasure cause nothing could measure (Oh oh oh oh oh)

Love is great, love is fine (Oh oh oh oh oh)
Out the box, outta line (Oh oh oh oh oh)
The affliction of the feeling leaves me wanting more (Oh oh oh oh oh)

Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care, I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But chains and whips excite me

Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care, I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But chains and whips excite me

Na na na na
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it (Na na na)
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it

Love is great, love is fine (Oh oh oh oh oh)
Out the box, outta line (Oh oh oh oh oh)
The affliction of the feeling leaves me wanting more (Oh oh oh oh oh)


Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care, I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But chains and whips excite me

Na na na na
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it (Na na na)
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it

S-S-S & M-M-M
S-S-S & M-M-M

Oh, I love the feeling you bring to me, oh, you turn me on
It's exactly what I've been yearning for, give it to me strong
And meet me in my boudoir, make my body say ah ah ah
I like it-like it

Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care, I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But chains and whips excite me

Cause I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care, I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But chains and whips excite me

Na na na na
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it (Na na na)
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it
Come on, come on, come on
I like it-like it

S-S-S & M-M-M
S-S-S & M-M-M
S-S-S & M-M-M
S-S-S & M-M-M

Day 16

Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate

I used to BLAST this song, I think I played it a little too much lol because now I HATE it! I mean really.. Nicky Minaj? Ick.




Yeah
Oh oh it's Mr. Steal Yo Girl
Oh oh it's Mr. Steal Yo Girl oh oh
Let's go

[Chorus: Trey Songz]
Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)

[Verse 1: Trey Songz]
You know what it is girl, we back up in this thang
Money stay in my pocket, girl, I'm like a walkin' bank
Tell me whatcha drank, tell me whatcha thank
If I go get these bottles, we go alcohol insane
Callin' all the girls, do you hear me?
All around the world, city to city
Cheers to the girls, throw a deuce to the guys
Now I got a chicken and a goose in the ride
Gettin' loose in the ride
Hatin' ass nigga you can move to the move to the move to the side

[Chorus: Trey Songz]
Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)

[Verse 2: Trey Songz]
My vision's blurred, my words slurred
Its jam packed, a million girls
And I ain't tryin to lead em
We drunk so let me be your alcohol hero
Callin' all the girls, do you hear me?
All around the world, city to city
Cheers to the girls, throw a deuce to the guys
Now I got a chicken and a goose in the ride
Gettin' loose in the ride
Hatin ass nigga you can move to the move to the move to the side

Day 15

Day 15-A song that describes you.

This was kind of hard because I don't really know of any songs that "describe" me unless it was written about me lol but I have been told that this song reminds people of me, i'm not sure that it "describes" me though.



Well I’ve been saved by the grace of Southern charm
I got a mouth like a sailor and yours is more like a Hallmark card
And if you wanna pick a fight
Well I’m gonna have to say goodnight
I don’t have to be hateful, I can just say bless your heart

And even though I don’t belong with your high life friends
It doesn’t mean we don’t get together and try to make amends
It’s easier can’t you see
Let’s agree to just disagree
We don’t have to like each other but it’s sure fun to pretend

So let’s shake hands and reach across those party lines
You’ve got your friends just like I’ve got mine
We might think a little differently
But we got a lot in common you will see
We’re just like you
Only prettier

Everybody says you’ve gotta know your enemies
Even if they only weigh a hundred pounds and stand five foot three
If you just smile and behave you can always get your way
It’s a universal plan that’ll get you where you can in all societies

So let’s shake hands and reach across those party lines
You’ve got your friends just like I’ve got mine
We might think a little differently
But we got a lot in common you will see
We’re just like you
Only prettier

Let’s shake hands and reach across those party lines
You’ve got your friends just like I’ve got mine
We might think a little differently
But we got a lot in common you will see
We’re just like you
Only prettier

Well, I’ll keep drinkin’
And you’ll keep gettin’ skinnier
I’m just like you
Only prettier

Day 14

Day 14-A song no one would expect you to love.

I freakin' LOVE this song!!! <3 I love Mr. Paisley too by the way!



She’d rather wear a pair of cut-off jeans than a fancy evening dress,
And with her windows rolled down and her hair all blown all around, she’s a hot southern mess...
She’ll take a beer over white wine and a campfire over candle light,
And when it comes to love, oh her idea of a romantic night...

Is listenin’ to old Alabama, drivin' through Tennessee...
A little Dixieland Delight at the Right Time of the Night,
And she can’t keep her hands off of me-ee-eee!

Now we’re rollin’ down an old back road,
I got the steering wheel in one hand...
We’ll find a hideaway where she and I can play,
In Mother Nature’s band...

Now we’re listenin’ to old Alabama, parked somewhere in Tennessee...
A little Dixieland Delight and It Feels So Right,
And It’s Love In The First Degree-ee-eee!

Forget about Sinatra or Coltrane, or some ol’ Righteous Brothers song,
Hey even Barry White ain’t gonna work tonight, if you really wanna turn her on;
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
Play some back home come on music that comes from the heart,
Play something with lots of feeling, ‘cause that’s where music has to start…

Now we’re listenin' to Old Alabama, and we’re drivin' through Tennessee,
A little Dixieland Delight and It Feels So Right and its Love in the First Degree...

Yeah’ you know we’re listenin' to Old Alabama,(old Alabama) drivin' through Tennessee, (Tennessee)
A little Why Lady Why at The Right Time of The Night
Oh and she can’t keep her hands off of me-ee-eee

Oh, play me some old Alabama,
Oh, play me some old Alabama...
Won’t you play me some old Alabama,
Play me some old Alabama...
Won’t you pla-ee-ay-ay
yeee-haw!!!
Latest submission by Banphira Wahlang

Day 13

Day 13-A song that is a guilty pleasure.

Whomp Whomp Whomp




This thing right here
Is lettin all the ladies know
What guys talk about
You know
The finer things in life
Hahaha
Check it out

Ooh dat dress so scandalous
And ya know another nigga couldn't handle it
See ya shakin that thang like who's da ish
With a look in ya eye so devilish

Uh
Ya like to dance at all the hip hop spots
And ya cruise to the crews like connect da dots
Not just urban she likes the pop
Cuz she was livin la vida loca

[BRIDGE]
She had dumps like a truck truck truck
Thighs like what what what
Baby move your butt butt butt
Uh
I think to sing it again
She had dumps like a truck truck truck
Thighs like what what what
All night long
Let me see that thong

[CHORUS]
I like it when the beat goes da na da na
Baby make your booty go da na da na
Girl I know you wanna show da na da na
That thong th thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes da na da na
Baby make your booty go da na da na
Girl I know you wanna show da na da na
That thong th thong thong thong

That girl so scandalous
And I know another nigga couldn't handle it
And she shakin that thang like who's da ish
With a look in her eye so devilish

Uh
She like to dance at all the hip hop spots
And she cruise to the crews like connect da dots
Not just urban she likes the pop
Cuz she was livin la vida loca

[BRIDGE]

[CHORUS (2x)]

Whoaaa
That dress so scandalous
And I swear another nigga couldn't handle it
See ya shakin that thang like who's da ish
With a look in her eye so devilish

(Whoa)
Uh ya like to dance at all the hip hop spots
And ya cruise to the crews like connect da dots
Not just urban ya like the pop
Cuz she was livin la vida loca

(Whoa)
She had dumps like a truck truck truck
Thighs like what what what
Baby move your butt butt butt
(Ooh)
Uh think to sing it again
Cuz she had dumps like a truck truck truck
Thighs like what what what
Baby move your butt butt butt
Uh think to sing it again
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on

Yeahhhh yeah

[CHORUS (3x)]

Whoa
Uh alright
Uh whoa yeah
Ooh
Whoa
(Like it when the beat goes da na da na)
(Baby make your booty go da na da na)
(Girl I know you wanna show da na da na)
Baby
(That thong th thong thong thong)

(I like it when the beat goes da na da na)
(Baby make your booty go da na da na)
(Girl I know you wanna show da na da na)
(That thong th thong thong thong)

Day 12

Day 12-A song from the band you hate.

Well they aren't a band, but.... Eminem Ft. Rihanna-love the way you lie.

ICK ICK ICK!!! I can not stand Eminem!! Rihanna is OKAY but I don't "like" her. This song makes me want to slap her and Eminem is like nails on a chalk board for me, stop screaming.. We can hear you. Idiot.



Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down


Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Bye Bye 2 months!

And then there were five!!!!!!! I am so happy that this whole thing is flying by! When people say "stay busy" they are not lying! I pack my days with anything I can and by the time my head hits the pillow at night I don't know what hit me and then it starts all over again! Sometimes life is a blur and I feel like I am fighting to keep up but luckily I have great people around me that are also riding this crazy wave and we are having a blast!

Every time my phone rings I run like it's my JOB to answer it and often find myself irritated that it's not the scratchy, crackly, faint noise that I want to hear on the other side. I'm grateful we have been able to skype pretty often, it's nice to see his face, I definitely think that has helped this time pass so fast. I know he hates how "boring" it is there but I know that boring is a good thing, well "good" being used lightly because anything could go wrong and "watch your step" is an understatement.

I have so much going on in the near future that I don't see time slowing down any :) *ALTHOUGH* one of my very favorite people on Earth will be moving in August and i'm just really not ready for all THAT lol. Mianna's birthday party planning is also taking up time and keeping me in a really great mood, I LOVEEEE planning parties and I figure they are happy and most importantly healthy, why not make their little birthday dreams come true and go all out? She will only be two once and if you can imagine it is going to be a BLAST! I'm pulling out all the bells and whistles to make a really unique birthday party that is fun for all! I got thisssss!!!

A few more weeks and I can say Bye Bye 3 Months!! Rush, rush, rush lol.

Day 11

I probably should jump back on and finish my 30 songs in 30 (in my case more lol) days! OOPS :)

Day 11-A song from your favorite band

And yes, I am totally going there.



Swoonnnn<3 I was such a boy bander lol and I still heart them even if they are all old and crusty now haha.


Yeah

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

[Chorus:]
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

[Chorus]

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...

You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say it)
I want it that way
I want it that way

Today is day 1!!

So today I am starting a 60 day challenge, it's nothing too crazy which is why I like this particular challenge-Well nothing too crazy to me lol. 2 days of detox/cleansing, 8 days of strict diet (daily calories met), and then the next 50 days are just regular eating better and lots of exercise.

I just drank my first shake of many and so far so good! I'm excited to see how well I do. I know that I don't need to lose a TON and i'm grateful for that but I would like to be comfortable in my pre baby clothes again with less jiggly going on lol.

So wish me luck! I definitely may need it! : )

Day 9

Day 09 – A song that you can dance to

Usher-DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love

Um yes, I love this song!!!



Usher, Usher, Usher
(Yeah man)

So we back in the club with the bodies rockin' from side to side
Thank God the week is done, I feel like a zombie gone back to life
Hands up, yeah suddenly we all got our hands up, no control of my body
Ain't I seen you before?
I think I remember those eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes

'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
So dance, dance like it's the last, last night of your life, life
Gon' get you right
'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again

Keep downing drinks like there's no tomorrow
There's just right now, now, now, now, now, now, now
Gon' set the roof on fire
Gonna burn this motherfucker down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Hands up, when the music drops, we both put our hands up
Put your hands on my body
Swear I seen you before
I think I remember those eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes

'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
So dance, dance like it's the last, last night of your life, life
Gon' get you right
'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again

Usher, don't lie
Hear no evil, or speak no evil, or see no evil
Get it, baby, hope you catch it like T.O., that's how we roll
My life is a movie, and you just Tivo

Honey got me swishin' like a dreadlock
She don't wrestle, but I got her in a headlock
Yabba dabba doo, make her bed rock
Mami on fire, pss, red hot

Bada bing, bada boom
Mr. Worldwide as I step in the room
I'm a hustler, baby, but that you knew
And tonight it's just me and you

'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love, fallin' in love
So dance, dance like it's the last, last night of your life, life
Gon' get you right

'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again
So dance, dance like it's the last, last night of your life, life
Gon' get you right
'Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us fallin' in love again

Day 8

Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to

This may shock many of you lol but this song reminds me of my mom, she would play Patsy Cline when she was cleaning so growing up I heard this A LOT!

Patsy Cline-Walking After Midnight




I go out walkin'
After midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
I'm always walkin'
After midnight
searching for you
I walk for miles
Along the highway
Well that's just my way of saying I love you
I'm always walkin'
After midnight
Searching for you
I stopped to see a weeping willow
Cryin' on his pillow
Maybe he's crying for me
And as the skies turn gloomy
Night winds whisper to me
I'm lonesome as I can be
I go out walkin'
After midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just hoping you may be
Somewhere walkin'
After midnight
Searching for me
I stopped to see a weeping willow
Crying on his pillow
Maybe he's crying for me
And as the skies turn gloomy
Night winds whisper to me
I'm lonesome as I can be
I'm out walkin'
After midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just hoping you may be
Somewhere walkin'
After midnight
Searching for me

Day 7

Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event

This song was playing as we were on our way to San Mateo to say bye before deployment. I remember sitting in the passenger seat thinking to myself, "Wow, perfect timing." So every time I hear this song I blare it! It was so fitting for the moment and i'm grateful because it was a little reminder that the show does go on.



Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

[Verse 1]
Have you ever had the feeling that you was being had
Don't that shit make you mad
They treat you like a slave, put chains all on your soul,
And put whips up on your back,
They be lying through they teeth
Hope you slip up off your path
I don't switch up I just laugh
Put my kicks up on they desk
Unaffected by they threats than get busy on they ass
See that's how that Chi-Town made me
That's how my daddy raised me
That glittering may not be gold, don't let no body play me
If you are my homeboy, you never have to pay me
Go on and put your hands up, when times are hard you stand up
L-U-P the man, cause a brand that the fans trust
So even if they ban us they'll never slow my plans up!

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

[Verse 2]
One in the air for the people that ain't here
Two in the air for the father that's there
Three in the air for the kids in the ghetto
Four for the kids who don't wanna be there
None for the niggas trying to hold them back
Five in the air for the teacher not scared to tell those kids
that's living in the ghetto that the n-ggas holdin
back that the World is theirs!

Yeah yeah, the World is yours, I was once that little boy
Terrified of the World
Now I'm on a World tour
I will give up everything, even start a world war
For these ghettos girls and boys I'm rapping round' the World for!
Africa to New York, Haiti then I detour, Oakland out to Auckland
Gaza Strip to Detroit, say hip-hop only destroy
Tell em' look at me, boy!
I hope your son don't have a gun and never be a D-boy

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

Alright, already the show goes on
Alright, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

[Verse 3]
So no matter what you been through
No matter what you into
No matter what you see when you look outside your window
Brown grass or green grass
Picket fence or barbed wire
Never ever put them down
You just lift your arms higher
Raise em till' your arms tired
Let em' know you're their
That you struggling and survivin' that you gonna persevere
Yeah, ain't no body leavin, no body goin' home
Even if they turn the lights out the show is goin' on!

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

Alright, already the show goes on
All night, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on

Deployment By Brynna

I'm going to add to this blog all deployment long. This is going to be based on my own personal life experiences (the good, the bad, the funny, and definitely the ugly). I hope this blog turns out as entertaining as I dream it to be lol. This won't be complete until the end of the deployment and I will keep it as updated as I can but here is a start ;)

1. Good friends will meet you at the playground with junk food and wine on deployment day.

2. The best kind of friend to have is the kind that laughs at you when you are crying because Domino's brought you too much cheesy bread and you have no husband to send it to work with.

3. The week revolves around Wonton Wednesday, even when you're on a diet.

4. You feel the little green jealousy jerk when you read about phone calls and emails your friends have received and feel bad when you're excited about your call and email when they aren't as lucky.

5. You will wake up at least twice a week with your phone stuck to your face JUST to be sure you don't miss a call.

6. You find yourself angry when people ask random stupid questions like "Is he going to kill anyone" Ummmm no Captain Obvious, he's in Afghanistan to play jump rope, sniper school was for shits and giggles.

7. There is no disappointment like waking up from a dream and realizing it was just that- A dream.

8. Anyone who rings your doorbell unannounced should be immediately shot. I'm not even kidding, can you say heart attack?!

9. A watched phone never rings.

10. Your life lights up for 30 minutes when you hear their voice and then dims again when you hear the phone click. Praying that you'll hear their voice again is an understatement.

11. Skype=Amazing!

12. There's no conversation that a "let's blow up the house" comment can't bring to a awkward halt.

13. When your husband is gone it's a good idea to borrow your friend's husband for random labor (keep it G rated ladies, this is important. X rated borrowing of husbands is never a good idea, just say no.) like starting lawn mowers, grilling, and beach cruiser customizing.

14. Watching shady neighbors while making smores is better than reality TV.

15. Sometimes you just need to let loose and drink wayyyy too much Jameson Whiskey to remind yourself that life could always be worse.

16. Las Vegas Baby. "I got shoes, I got booze, but I ain't got no tattoos!" "Well then you're just shit out of luck then aren't you?". "Purple thong!!" "OMG, can you see my ass? Yes, but it doesn't look bad" "Okay good.".

17. Daddy Doll Daniel has more fun than the real Daniel.

18. You can never imagine how much you miss the smallest things. I would give almost anything to close my eyes and open them and it be Saturday morning in the Ramos house, with Daniel downstairs making breakfast and my coffee with the girls helping.

19. Time flies when you're having fun :)

20. Calm down.

Day 6

Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere

This just popped in my head when I read the title for day 6 and i'm not really sure why but..... I chose this song because every time I hear it I think back to a Marine Corps "Mandatory Family Fun Day" (Yes that's what they really call it lol) at the beach on Camp Lejeune, the day was SO pretty and perfect. This song came on and all the guys started singing and cheering, I will never forget it :)




Blame it all on my roots
I showed up in boots
And ruined your black tie affair
The last one to know
The last one to show
I was the last one
You thought you'd see there
And I saw the surprise
And the fear in his eyes
When I took his glass of champagne
And I toasted you
Said, honey, we may be through
But you'll never hear me complain

'Cause I've got friends in low places

Where the whiskey drowns
And the beer chases my blues away
And I'll be okay
I'm not big on social graces
Think I'll slip on down to the oasis
Oh, I've got friends in low places

Well, I guess I was wrong
I just don't belong
But then, I've been there before
Everything's all right
I'll just say goodnight
And I'll show myself to the door
Hey, I didn't mean
To cause a big scene
Just give me an hour and then
Well, I'll be as high
As that ivory tower
That you're livin' in

'Cause I've got friends in low places

Where the whiskey drowns
And the beer chases my blues away
And I'll be okay
I'm not big on social graces
Think I'll slip on down to the oasis
Oh, I've got friends in low places

Day 5

A song that reminds you of someone

Beyonce-Irreplaceable

OHHH Gosh haha this song reminds me of a crazy day that ended with me, my sister, Raycine and her sister driving down the road blaring this song and screaming it at the top of our lungs lol. Good times ;)



To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left

Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff, yes
If I bought it please don't touch

And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time?
And it's my mine name that is on that tag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up that chick and see if she's home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?

Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys
Hurry up before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I'll have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So since I?m not your everything
How about I'll be nothing, nothing at all to you
Baby I won't shed a tear for you, I won't lose a wink of sleep
'Cause the truth of the matter is replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute

You could pack all your things, we're finished
(You must not know 'bout me)
'Cause you made your bed, now lay in it
(You must not know 'bout me)
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

Day 4

Day 04 – A song that makes you sad

Brian McKnight Ft. Rascal Flats-Red, White, and Blue.

It never fails, I cry through this entire song. It hits home for me especially the part about the baby girl :*) BUT it's such a good song, I'm a glutton for punishment I suppose.



Baby
Tomorrow I'ma hafta fight
Leaving at first light
And all I can think of is you

Baby
I can hear you tryin not to cry
I'm afraid and I ain't gonna lie
I gotta do what I've been trained to do

I'm a little tired, but I'm doin fine
I got my brothers back and he's watching mine
Just keep praying that we'll all make it through

I fight for what's right
And I fight for what is true
Mostly I'm fighting to get back to you
We don't see black
We don't see white
We just see what we hafta do
All we see is red, white, and blue
Fighting for our red, white, and blue

Baby
How's our little baby girl?
Does she know her daddy's half way round the world?
Tell her she is my heart
Well...
I've only seen her in a photograph
Don't know whether to cry or laugh
While I'm out here in the dark

I get so damn tired but I'm doin fine
Got my brothers back and he's watchin mine
Just keep prayin that we'll all make it through

I fight for what's right
And I fight for what is true
Mostly I'm fighting to get back to you
We don't see black
We don't see white
We don't see what we hafta do
All we see is red, white, and blue
Fighting for our red, white, and blue

I don't know the reasons why
Sometimes at night I sit and cry
It's hard to tell you what I'm goin through
What I'm goin through...
When all we have is this telephone
On this telephone...
Don't know when I'll be comin home
I just need you to keep praying that I do

I fight for what's right
And I fight for what is true
Mostly I'm fighting to get back to you
We don't see black
We don't see white
We don't see what we hafta do
All we see is red, white, and blue
All we see is red, white, and blue
Fighting for our red, white, and blue

Day 3

Day 03 – A song that makes you happy

Easy, Jack Johnson-Better Together
It reminds me of a lot of great memories with Daniel :) I always smile and blast this song when it comes on my iPod, it takes me back to a Valentine's day of 2006 <33



There’s no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart and our dreams
And they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-tone lovin’
Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go? and how come it's so hard?
It’s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I’ll tell you one thing
It’s always better when we're together

Mmmm it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, we’ll look at them stars and we’re together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together

And all of these moments just might find
Their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they’ll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things
For tomorrow night you see that they’ll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I’d be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We’ll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm we’re somewhere in between together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm mmmm mmmmmmmmm

I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now and, and when I wake up
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We’re Better together

Day 2

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

Tonight-Enrique Iglesias

SOOOO Easy! I freaking HATE this song!! I typically don't like songs with a bunch of filth or cursing, I just think it's inappropriate.. I know I know..



I know there's another version that says "loving" instead of the F word but still the concept of the song just grosses me out and I would punch somebody in the face if they walked up to me in a club and said "Tonight i'm f*cking you!".. Note that boys.

I know you want me
I made it obvious that I want you too
So put it on me
Let's remove the space between me and you
Now rock your body
Damn I like the way that you move
So give it to me
'Cause I already know
What you wanna do

And here's the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody's ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Given my reputation
Please excuse me I don't mean to be rude

But tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you

You're so damn pretty
If I had a type then baby it would be you
I know you're ready
If I never lied then baby
You'd be the truth

And here's the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody's ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Given my reputation
Please excuse me I don't mean to be rude

But tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you
Ohh you know
That tonight I'm loving you

30 Songs in 30 Days-Day 1!

Thanks to my wonderful friend Christina who sent me the information for this new 30 day project, i'm looking forward to passing another 30 days doing this!!

Day 1- Your favorite song

This was hard, I don't really have a "favorite" song, I just kind of love a song but many songs at once if that even makes sense lol. One of my favorite songs right now is Katy Perry- E.T I LOVE the beat and I love Katy Perry, too bad about Kanye being in there ;)



[Kanye West]
I got a dirty mind
I got filthy ways
I’m tryna Bath my Ape in your Milky Way
I’m a legend, I’m irreverent
I be reverand
I be so fa-a-ar up, we don’t give a f-f-f-f-ck
Welcome to the danger zone
Step into the fantasy
You are not invited to the otherside of sanity
They calling me an alien
A big headed astronaut
Maybe it’s because your boy Yeezy get ass a lot

[Katy Perry]
You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil
Could you be an angel

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Your so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes


And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

There is this transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

[Kanye West]
I know a bar out in Mars
Where they driving spaceships instead of cars
Cop a Prada spacesuit about the stars
Getting stupid ass straight out the jar
Pockets on Shrek, Rockets on deck
Tell me what’s next, alien sex
I’ma disrobe you, than I’mma probe you
See I abducted you, so I tell ya what to do
I tell ya what to do, what to do, what to do

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

The blah effect.

Well hot damn. We were doing SO good with dealing with this deployment, or so I thought..

The girls haven't been sleeping that well at all and the "I miss my daddy" has begun. It's really hard to try to maintain a stiff upper lip when i'm trying to explain we have to be strong and every time we go to sleep we get closer to Daddy, when in reality I feel like absolute crap too. I know this is just feelings that should have been felt the day he left creeping in but damn. The rain also didn't help, I hate when I look outside and it's gloomy AND I feel gloomy inside already.

I am recalling the feelings of trying to remain positive and how hard it really is. It's hard to fight back tears when your 4 year old doesn't want to eat because she thinks starving herself will make Daddy come home or when your 1 year old sees his picture and screams "DADDY!!!" at the top of her lungs, I don't want them to forget him by ANY means but I do wish we could all adjust soon, it hasn't even been a week yet and despite my attempts of being positive, I feel like absolute poop.

Must. Get. Out. Of. The. House. Soon!!

Never goodbye.

Well deployment day has officially come and gone. It was a little easier than I thought it would be, but by no means was it "easy". My heart sank when I heard them call out that it was time to load up, I felt a panic come on, the fight or flight type of panic. I wanted to stand there with my chin up, brave, and fearless but at the same time I wanted to grab Daniel and run back to the car, back out and speed off. Fortunately I found a happy medium of them both, honestly the guys made it so easy to be comfortable. They are all truly my heros, they loaded the buses with smiles on their faces and in great spirits. It's SO hard to be sad when you see guys dressed in camis headed to a war zone and danger with smiles on their faces and their spirits high. They are ready.

My heart broke when the buses drove away and I could hear Daniel tapping his wedding band on the window as they went by, I couldn't see him because the lights were off on the bus but I had a feeling it was him (I was right!). After that came the long ride home, well it felt long. Thankfully it was dark outside and very early so it wasn't so awkward since I cried the entire way home. It was hard to pull into the drive way seeing his car parked but knowing he wasn't home, it's little stuff like that I will need to start getting adjusted too.

Surprisingly I think I have done pretty well emotionally. I was worried I would be spending a lot more time crying, but I really haven't. I'm sure my level of exhaustion is kind of distorting my reality a little lol but I actually feel okay right now. Every now and then I will get a little sick feeling in the pit of my stomach but I just try to think of something else really quickly and it goes away. I've also not really had too much time to sit and think about how sad I am and I think that makes the difference. I know that me sitting in my house crying all day isn't going to turn the buses around any sooner so I chose to keep my eye on the prize and my mind off the fears.

My heart is heavy and I miss him so much but the show must go on. The girls and I look forward to wrapping our arms around him when he steps back off that bus :) Thank you all so much for your love, support, and prayers. It was overwhelming yesterday to see how much you guys really care. My phone, facebook, texts, and emails were constant yesterday and that really, REALLY made my day. I love you all!!

Before I go, I wanted to share this picture with you because it's amazing. Like AMAZING, amazing! At 5AM he was standing in the darkness, saluting his brothers as they left, in his dress blues. That is dedication and love at it's finest.



"Saluting the deploying Marines of 1st Battalion 5th Marines 1st Marine Division as they drive over San Mateo Hill, Camp Pendleton, CA. Sangin, Afghanistan watch out!"

Make Peace or DIE.
~Brynna