Oh March, here you are.

Well here came March anyways now didn't it? My sweet girl is turning 4 and soon we will give daddy his last kiss for 7 long months! I will be happy to see March end and it's only just begun.

I can honestly say that at this point, today.. I feel strangely calm about this deployment. I have come to accept it and I am comfortable at last with who Daniel will be around. I am not sure what happened in 29 palms for 5 weeks but whatever happened I am grateful for, I saw brothers when I saw them all together. I am especially happy with the guys Daniel works with directly on his team, all of them are great guys. I wish there was more time to bond before the deployment but it's life I guess.

Today I realized that I am almost anxious for him to leave so I am not in this weird limbo all the time, because right now I know it's coming soon, I can be smiling but there's a little black rain cloud behind my smile and I am really ready to kick that rain cloud to the curb and get this deployment on a roll. The sooner it starts the sooner it will be over, and I finally for the first time feel ready. I am nervous because I don't want anything to happen to anyone we know, especially my husband but I am ready. I know I have to get through all this to get to the end of his deployment.

I plan to stay busy, travel, and just enjoy life while he is gone. I know the girls and I will miss him so much but dwelling on it isn't going to get us very far. I am praying time will fly and this fall we will be making homecoming signs and getting ready for our favorite marine to come home.

I know I will have my days where crying and wine are going to be a requirement but bring it on if it gets me one day closer.

Brynna